I've got a philosophy final tomorrow, and the other three of my finals on Monday. Talk about stressful. I can't decide which class to prioritize, they are all hard for me...school is hard for me. Eh, it sucks.
Besides school, my life has been a little messy. Everything isn't coming together the way I'm always hoping for. I'm stressed. I'm losing all of my hair because of it. (I don't really know if that's why but I'm going to assume it is.) Seriously, it's all falling out. I'd go to the doctor but I don't want to pay for it. I'm cheap. Besides I feel like the doctor never ends up being helpful, but always ends up costing a lot.
Lately I've been stressed and so I attribute that to my anger. I'm so mad and irritable and I don't know how to change it. I keep getting in fights with the people I care most about and for some reason it never seems to get better. I'm nervous about my future, and to be honest I have no idea where it's going. Some days I know exactly what I want and I'm excited for my life to start happening and other days I feel like I couldn't be more lost. I'm sick of always fighting. I want everything to feel right again, but in order for that to happen I need to let go of the past which I can't force myself to overcome. I wish I could change things about myself, about my life. I hate when people say that they wouldn't change anything about their life because it's made them who they are today. That's bull. Everyone has something that they could have done without. I know that life isn't made to always be easy, but I'm not strong enough to deal with some of the things that have been thrown my way. I'm sensitive, and emotional, and tired. I hate myself sometimes. I never wish I was someone else, but I sometimes wish my life would have turned out differently. Guess that's life though. I just need to move past a few setbacks and become the happy person I know I can be. I know it will all work itself out eventually..I just hope it's soon because I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I just want to be happy again.
Xoxo.
hey lexa-
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about all your stress, I know it isn't fun! As for the whole hair thing, it is caused by your stress and the doctor can't do a dang thing about it. I would go to the store and get some Hair Skin and Nail vitamins or even prenatal vitamins (both will help your hair)
My hair was falling out like crazy due to stress and that is all the advice the doctor gave me... so don't waste your money!
Thanks Dani! I'll really have to do that. I've been to the doctor for something else but they suggested prenatal vitamins for it and if they'll help my hair i'll just have to get them! Thanks for the advice..and for being the first comment on my blog! I was so excited hahah! :)
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